let me take you on the ride of my life
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How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!



What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.


My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read


How to love me


♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.




deux:






trois:
Tuesday, August 31, 2004 5:11 PM
i am depressed. i feel like dying. it started of fine. until i went to far east. why! why! why! i hate him. i hate myself. it was on level 4. we walked past each other. we had the same expression as we looked into each other's eyes. there was no communication. there was dismay. he had his girl. his face changed absolutely. sh can be my witness. his expression - drastic change. my reaction - drastic. we walked past each other with absolute silence. stubbornly, i turned back to see his back. he didn't turn back. he didn't say anything. i always wished that i could at least get one last long look of him. i was wearing that ring. but it didn't mean anything. we never had anything to do with each other. his face. his eyes. they never change. the image of walking past each other is stuck in my head. he is darn farkin cruel. he is a darn fool. & i feel so demoralised. i'm sure he hates me. i gave away what he told me. i hate him. he'll probably never speak to me. i don't want to see him. ever again. never. guys are farking assholes. they are selfish. they are mean. they are stupid. cruel. in my whole life, in my hate list : this guy is one of them. to add on to my misery. i saw my other ex, the one before this one. lucky he didn't see me. he's another person on my hate list. he's a selfish asshole. morons. altogether. there are 4 people i never ever want to see in my life. why is today such a bad day. i saw 2 out of 4 hateful people. i will never forget what they did to me. selfish. cruel. evil. shameful. detestable. delinquent. mean. nasty. rotten. vicious.