How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!



What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.


My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read


How to love me


♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.

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9/9/04 been thinking a whole lot about things last night. i didn't want anything bad to happen. i'm at fault. i don't respect him. i'm selfish. i'm useless. so now it's my turn to hate someone - myself. right. he's selfless while i'm selfish. i wish i were not even alive. why. i have no support about anything i do. i do nothing right. i discriminate. i look down. i'm too complex. i'm everything bad. all i'm good at is being selfish & think about myself. i'm really at fault. everyone has a past. i do have a past. i'm guilty of things. he gives his everything to me. do i give everything to him. i'm hopeless aren't i. how many people hate me to the core. i wanna noe.

this morning i had salon appointment. in-square. i did extenso. um. it's much better anyway. they're really friendly. winnie jie jie's hair is nice mans. she was my stylist today. uncle ivan insists i call him 'kor kor ivan' he's the big joke of the day. he's the creative director & he said he'll get lobang for me for modelling at l'oreal. i was kinda shocked. mm. he said, "18 years old can already." i was like," huh! i'm like 16 ~! " "make-up will make a big difference."he replied. it's true. he's talkative. (-_-'') but hey, male hair stylists are kinda like niang niang qiang~ if you get me. yea. *smile

back to my life. my dear's driving me mads. he looks so cute in his new hair cut. he makes me happy in so many ways. i'm feeling guilty of things. i love him to pieces especially when he smiles & get all happy & excited. i'm all in for his happiness. if i lose him. i seriously don't know what would happen. i'm far off better dead, than realise that he's gone & i want him & his hugs so badly. i'll seriously do anything to make him happy. really, if he's reading this. i want to say sorry for being so ungrateful about your respect. sobs sobs!!!!!