let me take you on the ride of my life
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How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!



What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.


My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read


How to love me


♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.




deux:






trois:
Sunday, September 19, 2004 8:16 PM
i'll be happy for my whole life if he makes me cry with joy. this year's birthday is gonna be useless. it's gonna be another day with my left brain & my right brain quarelling & smashing each other. what kind of person am i? i hate things that are happening now. things were going on, never like before and i was constantly contented with life & always on cloud nine, every so happy. but now things have happened, even if they really should or should not. if it's entirely my mistake or not, i am going to be calm. i want to regret, but regrets cannot change things. i want to be pure happy and not having to a fake a happy facade. really. everything was so nice. i was living a dream-my wish that came true. my wish that i wished upon a wishing star last christmas came true! why is that wish fading so fast? was i wrong to be happy with him? was i wrong to have him? why did God make me fall again & again. why? i'm angry & depressed. with things that God made happened. i'm not so strong to keep falling & picking up. but i want to be strong. can he look into my eyes & tell me why did things have to go wrong, at this time, really, at this time. i'm at fault once again. i can't do things properly. i do things using too much brain cells, thinking too complex & end up making a mess out of things. people keep asking me what's wrong. nothing's wrong. i'm really fine. i'm really happy. i'm fine.