let me take you on the ride of my life
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How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!



What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.


My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read


How to love me


♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.




deux:






trois:
Tuesday, December 28, 2004 10:23 AM
They should seriously consider selling Oreo Cookies w/o the cream. Drinking Mocha with ma Oreos. Delicio` (Black cookies are the Greatest)


Siblings quarrel all the same as when they were young. The uncle & the mom pick on each other constantly without taking a saliva break. In Chinese, I'm like telling myself, 'Bui ta han.' I walk out of the kitchen shaking with disagreement on that Sunday. Sigh...


To cure my boredom, i shall get my mind busy... (Thinking*)...Composing...Hmmm....


The gym is where i run on a threadmill,
Like a lil' hamster on its unclean wheel;
Trying to break free of all troubles,
At the same feel bold inside.
The hamster may seem foolish, running without anything in return,
And letting others stare at his stupidity with very very little concern.
But look & see, he has the Troubles all the same.
Something called satisfaction from his ownself that's sane.
He compromises, making things less a burden,
At the same making life too, an amazement.


- Nel


Amazing! Haas!
Really can't believe Literature's still in me. Comprehendin' myself through beautiful words, phrases & with poetic license. I could truely start composing. Mans...There's really much to life but I just can't work on them. How do I even pursue my interest when I'm broke & only 16. Farkin' days. Feeling so disappointed with child-like behaviour from certain people. Sigh. I know I'm no better anyway. Mundane thing everyday like the TV. The news, the disaster. It's so killing. Troubled hectic days.The more you know, the more complex things get, the more people get cautious around you.


I was thinking about my English Examination Paper One. I had written 'Wealth' & i saw something related to that topic in a newspaper article last week. Truthfully, so what if the Africans earn $1,400 a year, and they're the happiest people on earth? It's because they do not have something called 'competition in society'. In Singapore, earning that sum in one month is already making you cautious of every single cent you spend. And how much can you compare the price of a single grain in their country & ours. It all makes up to a wrong thinking that Wealthier people should have lesser worries in contrasting with the Poorer people who have to worry about filling stomaches. It seems like the point of that article was to teach us a lesson, to make us feel satisfied & fortunate with what we have. But in particular to the whole darn picture, it doesn't seem quite right to some point of view. If we could ever earn that lil' a year & survive in THIS country, we should be listed as Happy People too, shouldn't we. It's not how much we earn counts. It's what the society & environment wants us to do, therefore making us stuck for life in this farkin situation. To sum it all up, their happiness count because of their 'Free-to-be-Yourself' environment as compared to our hypocritical 'See-your-EQ & Certs' society. A simple example - If you were to be your true self here, people will give you the 'face', showing true colours, their low EQ, low self-esteem, digging at critical comments of people. See how fierce this place is getting at. An amazing change of modernisation.


At the end of conflicting both side of my left & right brain, I'm in my office blogging this entry, sipping away my Mocha and enjoying ma bits of Oreos. (*lick the blackie crumbs!)Patiently waiting, waiting (for them to manufacture just the black cookies)!


Cheerio`