let me take you on the ride of my life
un:
How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!



What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.


My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read


How to love me


♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.




deux:






trois:
Thursday, October 20, 2005 10:10 AM
i spent tuesday evening with my best friend at dome.
we never paused chatting.
i told her everything i could think of.
she told me what she could think of.
it was a really enjoyable night.
we talked about new and old people in our lives.
fantastic actually.
we were rather fascinated by how much we have grown, mentally that is,
over the past years.

and as for last night, we all went over to jack's place.
it actually took me quite awhile to figure out a distant friend worked there.
everyone was bloated.

and as for today,
i feel like smashing the head of the doctor's into concrete.
i feel awful.
so much so that i feel stabbing myself.
why did i have to say that doctors should be honored when he has worsen my situation.
DARN freak.
my uncle is fetchin me afterwards &
my aunt is taking me to see another doctor.
the parents wouldn't know.
uncle's coming to save me in the evening &
i feel like it is never coming.
it's only the morning.

HELP!

i rather have pain in me.
i want so much to kill myself right now.
i wished some doctor would give me a miracle right now.
irate i am.
sad too i am.
rather...
i must keep calm & meditate.
God save me from all misery.

i've only told my best friend about my situation.
only God knows.
my aunt knows,
i know.
some things are hard to say.


anyway, it is MY MOM'S birthday today.
jo & i got her an anklet.
it's really shiny.
well,
happy birthday mom.