i spent tuesday evening with my best friend at dome.
we never paused chatting.
i told her everything i could think of.
she told me what she could think of.
it was a really enjoyable night.
we talked about new and old people in our lives.
fantastic actually.
we were rather fascinated by how much we have grown, mentally that is,
over the past years.
and as for last night, we all went over to jack's place.
it actually took me quite awhile to figure out a distant friend worked there.
everyone was bloated.
and as for today,
i feel like smashing the head of the doctor's into concrete.
i feel awful.
so much so that i feel stabbing myself.
why did i have to say that doctors should be honored when he has worsen my situation.
DARN freak.
my uncle is fetchin me afterwards &
my aunt is taking me to see another doctor.
the parents wouldn't know.
uncle's coming to save me in the evening &
i feel like it is never coming.
it's only the morning.
HELP!
i rather have pain in me.
i want so much to kill myself right now.
i wished some doctor would give me a miracle right now.
irate i am.
sad too i am.
rather...
i must keep calm & meditate.
God save me from all misery.
i've only told my best friend about my situation.
only God knows.
my aunt knows,
i know.
some things are hard to say.
anyway, it is MY MOM'S birthday today.
jo & i got her an anklet.
it's really shiny.
well,
happy birthday mom.