a flower is an educated weed

un:

How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!

What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.

My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read

How to love me

♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.

deux:

Tuesday, October 18, 2005 9:38 AM

i visited the doctor's last night.

as self treatment was useless for me.

for a couple of months,

then did i decided to check with the doctor.

we're all certain doctors will be even better in future, yes.

and talking about doctors,

i still have yet to find a cure to this lethargy of mine.

it's seems so much to be inherited actually.

it's not how tired i want to be.

i got myself into bed at ten thiry last night.

at once i began my dreams.

and now being ten in the morning,

i still feel rather unawake.

right now, it seems like heaven if i could reach for home.

and to sleep all through without interruption.

for e.g,

last night, it felt so great in the room alone - SLEEPING.

perfect flowing dreams.

when...

this person had to call me at 1.40am.

i was so (vulgar word) irritated.

and worse, he could ask why i had to turn in so early.

i said bye after our talk time lasted barely a minute,

and worse,

i just stared in the dark space,

i couldn't fall back into sleep right away.

fed up with some irritable people,

i walked to the balcony & stared into the night lights,

for five minutes.

i then hopped back into bed and dozed of straight.

every single day,

i can barely open even an eye,

as the alarm clock rings,

my thoughts are always seemingly the same.

i dislike routines.

and,

i do need more sleep.

it's puzzling isn't it, how we are made like that.

we are made to rest.

to rest, so no exhaustion,

no dehydration,

drains our soul away.

perhaps i'll have a day off.

to rest my mind & soul.

you too.