from the last week,
there has been a total of
UNCOUNTABLE extreme emotions within me.
it's either the shit feeling,
like the irritating situations i seem to get trapped in,
or the anger situations, like when i seem to meet low mentality people,
or the basket case of simple ignorance of those inconsiderate & unfeeling humans.
i have come to a place where i need to have a stand but am filled with fury and seemingly unable to obtain any stand, reaching nowhere near my tolerable stage. my patience is fading.
these people are making me tolerate.
my patience is definitely near the cliff.
fuck.
on the verge of having sucidal thoughts of THEM.
why
am i so pessimistic about THEM?
bother.
at least i'm absolutely optimistic about the ones i love.
who cares a garbage aout THEM.
AT LEAST i had my great times,
and that's none other than
having my boyfriend to share thoughts with.
and know what?
i love his shoulder.
it's not boney,
it's not droopy,
it's strong and dependable.
my guy's great till i have no idea how to express my gratitude to him.
we share those sad and angry moments.
and it splits half our pain.
we share those happy and eager moments,
and it doubles our joy.
he's helping me cope with this entire week like my guardian angel.
so grateful.
because of projects,
i have to stay up so late.
the thought of another sleepless night is stabbing me.
suddenly,
he says
i shall stay up with you this time.
he's the greatest.
oh yes, let me recall one great day last week.
friday was really good.
darl and i had Sizzler for dinner,
and strolled down to check out the merlion down the pier.
we had so much laughs and people watchin' was awesome.
sat's my fav day,
and
i spent it with my mom surprisingly.
i visited my dentist in the morn
and we went shopping after that.
i got myself two skirts and three tops.
she got herself so many, like four tops
two pairs of heels, a Guess bag and 'Whoa'.
it's like, either i've never seen her spend that much.
or that i'm getting more sensitvie with seeing money spent.
oh well.
shopping's tiring but so GREAT!
then on sunday,
i had to study.
how i dread the 'S' word.
he accompanied me willingly.
then we played a game of billard with a couple of friends
and had our favourite chicken rice at novena.
yum.
tuesday,
we headed town to shop for a pair of jeans.
choosing between topman, guess and levis,
he chose levis eventually.
seriously looks 'shuai dai le'
well, it was yy's boy's birthday on tues.
happy birthday ivan (:
then came wednesday and
it was a total bad day before sunset.
rushing places
and seeing faces,
needless to say,
i wasn't feeling at all great about a single thing on a wed like that.
fortunately my savior came.
darl listened to my everything.
he told me about school too.
we all had our troubles halved.
i feel better.
then we had dinner at the prata house.
vent it all out on the sugary prata!
and,
as for the other days i didn't mention,
it was perhaps either
too dreadful or too horrible,
too insignificant or too sorrowful to do so.
au revoir.
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