gawd!
the talk in town's exams.
i hate 'em all so badly.
i merely had some carbo in the morning and i'm starting to feel zonked out already.
nothing's absorbing into the spongy lil' brain of mine; enough with digressing.
so i'm here right now.
there's so much goin' on
but they aren't really things i like, or rather, look forward to.
let's just say my days are passing too slowly.
why can't they speed up!
firstly, there's the exams which i doubt you wanna talk 'bout
and next there's valentines' day,
which happens to be on one of my exam date itself.
ugh. how horrid!
do you feel like vday is supposed to be something more extraordinary than regular?
as in a pressure to make this day more special and pay more attention to your loved ones.
fortunately i don't,
i mean i do get something for my bf, but it's not like tremendous.
if you get what i mean.
you just don't wanna get your hopes so high and disappoint yourself with something like
he doesn't seem to appreciate me when he does.
'cus perhaps you're too extra sensitive on the day itself.
anyway, of course there's this Chinese New Year
festival.
what's with this festive huh?
i don't even feel the festive spirit every time of this year.
this season just doesn't appeal to me, period.
i asked my mom a couple days back, "Why can't we go abroad during CNY?"
"Your grandparents are still around." she replied.
well, in other words if they weren't around,
we could be spending our wasteful years of cny hols abroad.
i know it sounds crude,
but i simply can't help it.
i simply dislike the pretentious visits to relatives once a year.
and i'm not saying that
all old people have dementia (again)
but they repeat the same thing EVERY YEAR, "Your daughters have grown so tall! If we see them on the streets, we wouldn't recognise them!"
talk about visiting yearly.
they don't even remember us (shrug)
we sit there and listen to the older people talk about their past,
while trying to spot for pineapple tarts (if there are any)
if we're lucky, the television could be on and it would just be our pathetic source of entertainment.
after all has been said,
it's not that i don't like Chinese culture,
but sometimes i think the older generation could just loosen up.
we were eating sushi the other day.
and i like to stack my plates up you see.
intentionally, i stacked a plate of sushi on top of an empty plate,
to test my mom's reaction.
as expected, she said, "You better not stack your dishes when we're eating with other people."
they say it's bad.
"How come you're still holding your chopsticks this way?" my grandpa used to ask on purpose.
obviously he was laughing at me and that we all should hold chopsticks the right way.
holding the wrong way is bad.
then again there's this manners of greeting evernyone before we eat.
i hate this part everytime we go to our grandparents' place.
it's not just the older people,
even my parents too.
my bf has to say, "Uncle and Aunty, eat."
or else he's considered a bad guy.
shucks --
talk about etiquette and manners.
on the contrary, let's just stop this digression for now.
adieu!
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