i can be very selfish at times,
and with my low agreeableness,
perhaps my self interest comes first, and others come later, if any at all.
still, i may very well be having an endless supply of oomph right now -- and it should be a darned good thing, no?
like right now,
i'd very much love to steamroll anyone who happens to disagree with me.
and yet they say i don't have to advertise it with that much of a gusto.
fine.
there wouldn't be many days for me to stay home 24hrs already,
esp when school's reopening,
so i've decided to quit a late night out on friday.
and be idle and read this month's reader's digest till i fall asleep.
thus after a pouring day at work this afternoon,
i took the bus back since
the rain had also made me reluctant enough to quit shopping for the moment.
i get naturally gloomy when i deliberately turn on some sad songs.
and i like that feeling once in a while.
we can never be on cloud nine all the time.
still,
i can't say i envy people who are constantly
happy,given that i don't feel too comfortable with those who are overly happy.
nor can i say i like being around
sad folks,
in view of the fact that they can be so stubborn and irritatable.
i'm generally broad minded when it comes to new things,
but if something crosses a particular line, there's no way of approving it.
something too wacky gets me goddamn suspicious.
perhaps it's all grievences of mine that scare aways readers.
then again,
you could prove to me it's sane feeling blissful every second of one's life.
and i shall admit defeat.
au revoir.