How to make a Janel

Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts beauty
5 parts family
5 parts love

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!



What about me?

love prints & handy crafts,
used to live in tokyo for a couple of yrs
however do not speak japanese,

eat only the breast meat,
do not eat abalone,
love black/white vinegar & gyoza,
pick out onions & pickles from my food,

have 'negro' curly hair,
play the electone,
love the rain,
prefer the night to day,

squeeze my toothpaste from its end,
wear my retainers at night,
love romantic comedies.


My nature

quiet
independent
logical
unemotional
ingenious
innovative
curious
driven to increase competence
casual
adaptive
nonconforming
unpredictable
detached
reasonable
balanced
avoids aggression and violence
tolerant
calm
well-developed sense of justice
empathetic
free of jealousy
loves to read


How to love me


♥ Respect my privacy and independence.

♥ Appreciate my competencies and wealth of creative ideas.

♥ Encourage me to spend time alone.

♥ Don't talk too much or force an emotional conversation before I'm ready.

♥ Try not to nag me about being messy or meeting deadlines.

♥ Allow me plenty of space to pursue my interests in depth and time to think things through.

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man, the coming friday to sunday's - a long awaited chalet.
i finally have some fresh air.

last week was a struggle, contemplating on saturday's bash at zouk.
for someone who doesn't go wild on the dancefloor nor enjoy loud trance,
i went ahead, just for a few great friends.

my opinion - not so fun.
i collapsed.
weird it may sound but it feels quite good to be away from reality.

i start seeing black spots blocking my vision,
i feel a blockage in my ears.
my mind goes off.
i collapse.
i see nothing, but i hear people talking around me,
most telling me to stay calm.
in fact, i am most calm at this state.

then when i feel my nervous system seriously cannot react any longer,
i fall into an extremely deep sleep which seemingly lasts for a LONG time.
i dream of something, some place very calm and quiet
it feels good.
but when i awake from a strange jolt,
i realise my 'dream' lasts only a few seconds.

people continue their speeches from where i last heard.
my fingers and feet go numb after i feel i have been put on a horizontal lying position.
i have no strength to talk nor move.
but i slowly regain my strength.

no doctor so far i've seen has told me i have any medical condition.
hospitals conducted a heart test,
blood count.
all normal.

sometimes i wonder if no result is good result.
but the fainting spells just keep coming.
how?

anyway,
cynical as it may sound but it's when you fall,
you realise who are the good and caring people around you.





from the left:
the good ol' johnny whose groovy specs i made him lose, sorry. hehe.
chowken the great dancer + strong man who carried me to the resting area,
mabia who is pretty good at the guessing number game,
silvia whom i taught the sparkle trick and the one who let me rest on her lap,
that's me next,
and joycey who has always been there for me since day one. hugs!
then there's ariffin who's my good smokin' buddy and the one who bought me 2 hotdogs after i blacked out.
and lastly it's lee peng in the middle, the one who always dresses in her fashionable style,
and whose boyfriend fetched me home that day.

thanks ya'll (: